Oct 27, 2012 was mas last post. Three whole months. Its not that I haven't wanted to write. Or that I haven't had time. I have. I've been debating about if I should write or not. I have decided that I should opt out at the moment. My blogs tend to get me into trouble with those of whom I'm dating. I've wanted to spare LEA the agony of seeing my inner mess.
Yes, we're still together. Four months and going.....this is where people say strong. I'd like to reserve that word for a later date. Only because I'm so up and down about staying that its not fair to put it in writing. He's such a fantastic guy. There is no doubt about it; however, I'm more messed up than one would like to think about.
I met LEA's parents and brothers over the holidays. We spend three weeks together camping and climbing. It was great fun. I've since moved into a little flat right off Bargara. The ocean is right outside my door. A tiny bit of heaven.
This was two doors down from me. Scary as fuck to have a tornado going through your yard. Especially when I was supposed to be there. I head home in ten days. I can't wait. Can't can't can't wait to see Carter. He is and always will be the reason for me to head back there. My divorce can't be finalized yet. Still more paperwork and another 20 day wait for that. FUCK. Its so frustrating. It pisses me off that we have to do this.
Oh well..........enough for now. I don't want to get addicted to writing.
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