I didn't steal anything; just trying to recover my sanity.

 

This is a good quote to coincide with the reason I was upset

I think today is a good day to get caught up on Mad Men season five and to spend it emotionally eating as one does.  Last night was the first night in over a year that I went for a run when I was upset.  Its funny to me how one forgets things they used to do.  I remember pushing aside my fears of the night to go for night runs.  Funny thing is, is if I get lost in the movement and my breathing I forget that I'm afraid of the dark.  However, I realize how much I love running at night. 

"Running at night: People think you stole something."

Its the best emotion relief.  To run.  It clears your head when you have cluttered it with thoughts.  To slip your shoes on and walk out the door and smell the night time air.  Its probably, easily, the most beautiful part of the entire 24 hours of a day.  The stars and the city lights.  The silence of everyone who isn't there.  Running past homes with their lights on and you can hear families in the kitchen or watching TV.  Why am I not running at night more often?  It allows for the cover of darkness so you can be alone in this big world.  Its beautiful.  I am going to start doing that more often.

I'm going to get back the things I love doing, one at a time.