Since buying this book, I have done it several times. The most recent time was when I left Zonski's place in Sydney. I always sat in the corner of his counter. So the last night I was there, I made dinner and bought myself some flowers to replace myself...... he probably threw them away as soon as I left.
I can honestly say that my parents did a kick ass job raising me. There have been a million times that I thought to myself, fuck me, I'd never do that if I had a kid. But my parents taught me respect and to be humble. They taught me about giving and loving. They taught me to be kind and to understand others points of view. They showed me how to become a strong, indpendent confident woman. And for that, I can forgive them for grounding me when I was 2 minutes late from my curfew. I can forgive them for not allowing me to do all the things I thought were so important at the ripe age of 14, 15 or 16. Yeah, they did a pretty awesome job at raising me, if I might say so myself!
Especially since living here in Australia, this has become so important. I shop at the farmers market for my veggies and buy my fish at the local fish market. I steer clear as much as possible from large chain stores and support the local farmer.
Just flew first class from Pittsburgh to LA. It was okay and I did actually blog about this one....sometimes I'm a good girl.
Seeing as I don't think I've really ever been full of myself, I think I can cross this off my list. But to add to that, I'm also more considerate of others feelings. I am working on including others in my decisions, especially when the decision includes them.
I'm agnostic. I've decided. I know there is a God. But I can't honestly say that one religion is worse than another. I can't sit here and tell you with an honest heart that someone is going to hell just because they don't believe Jesus Christ is Lord. And I have had these conversations with millions of people this last year as I've tried to find my true beief. Its been hard for me to decide what I believe. I know people of some faiths who I would never want to follow in their footsteps. I know of others who don't proclaim any faith, who I would strive til my dying day to become more like. So, I can't tell you who is god. If its a he or she. I can't tell you if they made the world in one big bang, or if they took seven days to do it. What I know is you should strive to be the best you can be. Be kind. Be generous. Be open. Be positive. Be whatever as long as its good.
I'm tired of apologizing for being me. I'm a mess. But here's the thing, I no longer will try to conform to being what someone wants me to be. I will no longer apologize for someone elses mistakes. This is a work in progress and I know I've come far enough to say yes, I am doing this.
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