My Boy

I want to tell you about my boy. 

PIB is fairly quiet until you get to know him.  He enjoys his time by himself, but tolerates me bursts of energy and disorganization.

He thinks before he speaks and tells you what you ask.  He doesn't beat around the bush and for the longest time, I thought maybe he was weak.

I'm a bit more than difficult to say the least.  I've tried to walk away, but he doesn't let me go.  For this reason, I thought he must not be able to leave.  For some reason he doesn't see me as I am.  What I've learned from him though is that when you love someone, you don't walk away.  It takes such a massive amount of strength to stay holding onto to someone whose instinct is to run from an intimate commitment.

He stands near  me.  Giving me room to breathe and find myself.  He allows me to express my emotions.  He does this without fear and worry.  He holds my hand and cuddles me.  He hugs me in public and isn't afraid to kiss me if someone might be watching.

He thinks about what I say and considers my feelings.  He gives me the freedom to share details about our relationship and doesn't feel that everything needs to be kept private.

He wants people to know he loves me.  He is proud to call himself my boyfriend.  He loves me.  He gives me the room to fail and try again.    I can fail and know that I can come back to him.

PIB took me to dinner and gave me a necklace for my birthday.  I love necklaces.  So much.  I love that I can keep them on and its an quite reminder that he loves me.  I will absentmindedly grab my necklaces and play with it.  I'll catch a glimpse of it in the mirror and smile.  I love my necklace.  I love my boy for all that he is.

I love that I have finally found someone who is exactly what I've been wanting; someone strong and affectionate.  Someone who challenges my mind and keeps me entertained.  Someone who doesn't mind being a character in my life story.  Someone who doesn't leave me feeling as though I'm not worth it.  He makes me smile and wants me.  He doesn't turn me down and tell me I ask for too much sex.  He doesn't fear that I will burn him with my energy.  He embraces my dark side and can pacify me without my own realization.  He makes me happy.