What was lost is found

I'm pretty sure I have found my spot.  Its peaceful after all of the built up tension in my life.  When I come here its quiet, with birds chirping and even if its chilly I'm comfortable.  There may be people talking in the background, but I'm in my own little world of thoughts and emotions.  I just simply can't hear them. 

 

I relax here.  It gives me a place to feel vulnerable and without the judging eyes of my loved ones.  It allows for me to take a moment of slow deep breaths to calm my body, clear my head and think logically.    Why you ask has it taken this long to find the peace of heaven?  It hasn't really.  It's just after months and months of coming here without realizing it- today, I take notice of what my subconscious already knows. 

 

I love it here.  Of course- I can't always come here.  Most days its just too busy.  Other days, its too far away.  But days like today, when I was at the gym, it was a simple left turn instead of right.

 

Its 9:47 am, smack dab in the middle of winter.  I'm in shorts and sandals, short sleeve shirt and its about 65.  Here after I take note of the sounds around me, I hear a drummer across the way and birds chirping.  Ahhh-I miss these birds.  They used to wake me every morning.  The sun as my sight and the birds as my hearing.  My morning senses were awaken by the most amazing and beautiful things in life.  

 

As usual, my post has taken a different turn then what I had in my mind when I sat down to write.  I just couldn't help writing about the beautiful spot I call mine.   All the nonsense and emotions going on in my current state, doesn't stop me from the recognition of this beautiful  place that makes me happy.  the river is amazing.  Its familiar and makes me feel at home. 

 

This post was supposed to be about my point of view of how my life is coming along so far.  But in this spot, the birds, the sounds of the boats, the beat of the drum, and the smell of the early morning world...I can't be fucked to write about anything else. 

 

Is this happiness or the calm before the storm?  Ah-who cares, right now, I'm going to live in the moment.  Enjoy right now, before time does what it does best, slips away.