I feel (and am told) that I have accomplished a lot so far in life. I don't feel ask though I'm done making my mark on society. So far from it really. I still want to do more volunteering in Africa and so many other places. But those dreams are on hold for now.
My mom has always been so proud of the things I've done. But some things seem like a bigger deal to her than others. And maybe it's just what Im around to hear her talk about. Last night she continued to introduce me as this is my daughter who lives in Australia. Haha like that's the only think I'm known for.
It's a really good feeling to know that the choices I've made in life have made her happy. I know she was so upset with the divorce so it's good to have her move past it. Although the fact Nathan is being a dick helps.
It appears that I have another 2-3 months to wait before its officially final. I hope. I think. I'm trying not to put too much energy into hoping. I fear it would only lead me to be disappointment. Again.
I spoke to my attorney yesterday whose first question to me was, are you engaged. Um, no. I don't think getting married again right now is the best decision this girl could make. Although a commitment to spend the rest of my days with PIB isn't far from my mind on a regular basis. (verbal, not written). Haha- oh dear, I know he reads these- maybe I should delete some of these thoughts?
He is so good to me. I remember asking him once if he were okay with him being my one. He said yes. I was so pleased. And still giddy to think about it. And in my mind I have committed my heart and soul to the boy. But would run if he wanted to give me a ring.... Ok, I'm going to stop now. Need to take things one day at a time. Firstly, get through these next three weeks.
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