I feel so elementary as I blog about this. However, I can't help being excited. See here's the thing; I haven't trusted anyone longer than two months in the last two years. And here I am. Five months into this relationship. I'm finally getting to the point where I'm saying, yes, this is real. I need to say though, this boy has fought hard the last few months to drill into my head that we are worth it. He is the sole reason we are still together. He has fought for our future harder then I could even think would be possible. He has taught me that even though we shut down, its worth going back for. We have both worked on our ways to communicate and change who we are to make a relationship work. Its hard fucking work too! You have two grown adults who have done things their own way for way too long. And now to compromise and contribute to another's life is not easy to say the least.
He said to me last night, I want the house and the dog. Wait. You've already had that. You want something different. I said, No. I do want that. I want that a lot. Just not by myself and not with the wrong person.
We're both ready for this. I know it, although, can't bring myself to put anything formalized on paper. I realize he is thinking about our plans for the future. For the long term. And no, I don't think it's too early. Mel and Crispy are doing and have been dating a month or two longer then PIB and I. They have moved into a relationship that's so comfortable with one another. I love seeing or hearing them talk about one another. They adore each other. And Amber and Graeme? I hold my breath everyday that the God's will finally give the two of them a break and just let them be near each other again.
While I can't bring myself to signing any formal documents, I'm going to put this in writing; to be documented on 2/19/2013 at 1:34pm EST (US time), I am beginning to believe in love. And whatever all it entails.
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