I get it now. Whirly Whirly isn't always a good thing.

Make a wish lady! xoxo

As the shoe said to the hat "You go on a head and I'll follow on foot"

Sometimes I hate being a girl. Some things just will never make any sense to me. How my body works. How my brain works. How people perceive me.

Its funny to me, now that its been pointed out, I can see how I have a physical affect on people. The sheer shock that I have an influence on someone else is mind boggling. And then comes along something else and it still shocks me.

I don't know where it comes from, I don't know how I have it, but I affect people. I've been oblivious to this my entire life.

I can see it now though. It's causing me to be cautions. I don't want people caught up in my moment and therefore agree to something they wouldn't have had I not been excited or involved. I can't help but to feel every emotion with the magnitude of a small earthquake. Say maybe an 8.9 on the Rector Scale? Its that hurricane feeling I bring with me.

I leave people feeling confused and anxious. I come in and confuse them with my excitement and my extremeness (is that a word?? It is now, see I'm doing it again!!)  I see this now. How do I change this? How do I use this to do good? How do I save people from falling into it?  I love things so fiercely and I say it and show it over and over and over again.  To the point people can't even see something without thinking of me.  Leopard print in high school, hello kitty now as an adult, 11:11 to make a wish.....it happens over and over and over and over.

Weird, and unique, and shocking, flattering and impressive, and scary and amazing, all rolled into one. 

I don't want to confuse you.  But I don't understand, if I feel this good in your arms, then why turn me away?  I learn from my mistakes.  You can tell me things bother you and I fix them.  Let me learn and grow.  Teach me and show me.  I don't know any other way.