Don't blink.

I have somethings I wanted to ponder in this blog. I wanted to muse about how things change. Small things that you wouldn't think one would notice, but somehow you do. I wanted to ponder About how shocking an unexpected thing can be when it's oleasant. And also about how life is short and I've lost two friends my own age from cancer. Ive had some really amazing days these last two weeks. Today was exceptional. Jenn and I had such a fantastic relaxing day. On my way to Erie with Jenn I drove past the house Nathan and I bought together eight years ago. We sold it only six short months ago. So many things in life have changed since then. It's shocking. As I drove through the area that I had called home, bridges were out, roads were moved, trees were down. Neighbors houses were painted, roads were redone. At the same time, everything was the same. We had the same neighbors, they had the same cars, pot holes were still in the road. So familiar and so different. It's been this way the entire time I've been home. As I finish up what I thought to be my last day here I took in all that I once called life. I don't miss any of it. I miss the people. My family and friends. But I can manage. 100% Everyone keeps asking me what my plans are. I can only tell them that I have none. At this moment in time, I am only returning to Australia til the end of July. I have no plans. Nothing. I want to visit Europe. I want to go to Asia. And Antarctica and Africa. I want to visit my bestie in guatemala. I want to tick some of these things off my bucket list. (I was looking for the post that had my list.....sadly, it may be in my personal blog). Anyway. There are still places I want to see. Once again, I state, I'd rather do this with someone, but I don't mind being on my own either. Ultimately, life is short. So fucking short. I have had so many friends die on me. Best friends, old boy friends, so many people. If you're not living the life you want, it's too short to fuck around. So fucking short. I can't finish this post. I'm headed to sleep.