Don't follow in my footsteps, I run into walls

I'm struggling a bit here. Am I a shitty friend if I can't forgive. Or a worse friend for wanting to forgive? Am I enabling this situation? At the end of the day, I can't do anything about it. I can't help any of the parties involved. Nor, I must honestly add, do I particularly want to. I am at war with the fact I see all sides of this issue. Everyone is to blame. There are no innocent parties. I know if even one thing were slightly different about this situation I would lean more toward one thing or another. But the facts are the facts. Things won't change. So my position here is the same. I will listen and understand with an open heart. I won't judge because I know you and understand you. But I am having a bit more difficulty than I would have wagered. It's not that I'm not loyal. It's just that I can empathize. So, I'll do what I do best and put it out of my mind, continue to be optimistic and see only the best and eventually, like time always does, I will forget. But maybe I shouldn't win friend of the year. Or month, or even week. Because honestly, I feel shitty with myself.