Actions vs. Words

Can I hear the most important of the two?

I'm having a bit of a difficult moment.   Over the weekend; the boy clicked into his phone and I noticed he'd changed his password.   As I try not to be offended; I can't help but to have it nag the back of my mind.  And I know I had brought me changing my password up in an argument once.  What I didn't explain is that its policy in my practice to change the password on a regular basis.  As we do receive e-mails and have other sensitive things attached to our phones, its impairative that we protect our clients.

While I was away we spoke about trust.  At one point I had said to him, do I believe what you say or what you do?

I have no doubt, because I'm the same, that our intentions to be different is there.  However, when it comes right down to action, we aren't exactly pulling through.  We.  Both of us.  As I pondered things on my drive today and then just now, after reviewing the stipulations for a defacto visa, I can't help but to have a nagging feeling that just won't go away.

This keeps me a bit more distant then I would like.  I do have to admit that I have given of myself to him more than any other person I've been with in 2.5 years.  This leaves me more vulnerable then I'd like; however, it doesn't stop me from being cautious.