Finding love-the journey

This has been such a struggle for me every time I get a glimpse of it, I run. Then I open up to it again, it I just end up shaking my head. DeFazio tells me I'll be swept off my feet. He's such a romantic. While we disagree about this, it's a good thought. I don't want a rush. I don't want the omg I can't believe it feeling. I dont want a oh, i cant wait to see him again mentality. That is just lust and I know from experience. I want it to be slow. I want an attraction, but mostly a friendship. I want a bond. An incredible understanding. A heartfelt yearning with the same ethics, goals, morals. I want a balance. A partner. An equal. I feel like I'm such a whirlwind. I know I am. I fear this chases away things that could be good. Then I tell myself, no, if it's meant to be, bad things can befall it, mistakes can be made, and misunderstandings can happen and it won't affect the relationship. I need to learn patience. Today while climbing down bluff knoll, I realizedi have seen more spectacular views. I was a bit disappointed. Then I remembered the birds I saw, the lizards, the smells, the feeling of the wind on my face, and the appreciation that I had the opportunity to even walk up the cliff and it was another reminder from destiny that it isn't about the destination, but always forever about the journey. At the end of the day, the destination is grim and dire. But the journey, the journey is awakening, refreshing, interesting. So pay attention. Xoxo