V-Dub

I have no clue why they call it this. But either way, another weekend here at Wild Mountains. It's funny to me how much I enjoy being part of a group from a distance. As I become more comfortable being alone, I will easily slip away from groups to observe from a distance. Or slip away all together unphased by the fact they are there and I am here. At arms length I'm learning to keep people. I'm partly worried because I don't want to lose touch with the girl who can wrap people into me and become a mild form of a hermit. This new way of being around people is a shield for myself that I welcome. But to some extent fear. But enjoy. I can't begin to express my happiness for this place. Unlike most things I engulf myself in, here I know it's small doses that makes it work so well. It's good for me. Beautiful for me. Makes me believe that I can never be loved like this in return.