Friday, 4 May 2012

Happiness hides in the heart but radiates throughout

I'm so giggly. I can't help it. After leaving bluff knoll I stayed in Walpole. Headed to Margaret river I see a hitchhiker along side the road. Nervous as hell, I pull over. The whole time I saying to myself, you are going to get killed. In jumps this big burly guy. Late 20's and a bit smelly. Sorry, he said, I'm a bit smelly. No worries, I replied. Thinking, hmmmm- if he smells too bad, i'll just put the window down....right? Or is that rude? He introduces himself as richie with his Australian accent, I realize this kid is a local. He says his nan just died and he is headed to Perth. I offer him food, but no cold water as all mine is frozen. He gladly, shyly, accepts and seemed very grateful. We head off toward manjimump and we start a long conversation of who we are and where we're going. Fast forward, we end up snorkling in the Indian ocean and then camping right off the beach at Canal Rocks. The night air was warm and smelled of spring. The moon was bright and illuminated the entire area. The fire was warm and kept burning for hours. It was so nice to sit by a campfire by a guy and not worry about how he might feel about me or worried that I might offend him or that he might be attracted to me. He gave me Some great insight on boys and how they see girls and what their feelings are. I enjoy hearing things like that. I'm Thinking, relax tonight, and tomorrow...head out on the town. Explore Freo again as I was here last year, but didn't really explore it all that much. Snorkeling again tomorrow is also the goal. Rain or shine. And I'd really really like to put a shout out here to TWO. And if you please don't mind me sharing your words of wisdom to me here: Me- at the end of the day I don't want success. I've had it. I don't want big business, I've been there. I sang a Carr but I don't want the suit. I want love. And so, I must settle my spirit to find it. I know i do. There isn't anything wrong with that is there? TWO- do you want advice or validation of your choice? I can give you either, but not both. Me- advice. I can find my own validation. TWO- I once tried to catch a little sand whirly-whirly in a lunch box when I was a kid. When I opened the lid all I had was sand. Nothing wrong with sand but it doesn't dance like a whirly-whirly. Sometimes when talking to him, I have to use everything I am to stay focused to his spirit. He is always philosophical and cognitive, so pensive and reflective. He makes me halt. Think. Breathe. I know he doesn't even, maybe he does? Know that he does it. But you know the best thing about it? He doesn't destroy my spirit. 'I just push it left or right.' He genuinely appreciates who I am. Without judgement, or if he is, he is so kind to not let me feel it. Let me just say here, not because he thinks I'm special, and I can tell you these words of sentiment are one sided. And I accept that. I don't feel the need to impress him. I feel that I can be me all the time, because he is strong enough to accept my hurricaneness. He absorbs all of me and doesn't nulify me. Can you understand how refreshing that is? How liberating I feel when talking to him? When asking him of his opinion ? It gives me hope that a person of the opposite sex grasp all of me. See me. Accept me. And better yet? Give me advice that I can use. That i don't have to, but can because it is logical and gives me what I want and need and that pleases me. THANK YOU! From the bottom of my heart. You have become such a dear friend to me and I can't even tell you how much that means to me. Xoxoxo

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