This song has always saddened me when I hear it on the radio. As most know, Nathan's affection was none. And most of his time went into video games. And he never ever had any fun with my friends and would never take me dancing. After I left Nathan he came to the house one day and was so excited. Telling me that he had been on a rollar coster and had been out to a night club and went dancing. He told me that he plays every weeked with his neices and sees his family regularly. What I heard, I realize now, is different then what he was telling me. I heard that he was willing to do all that when I wasn't around and asking to do it, surely he didn't love me. He told me he was trying to change, surely he loved me. I'm trying very hard to learn from my past. I would hear this song and think; is he feeling remorse when he hears this song? Does it remind him to be better with his new girl then he was with me? Has he learned from our past to change his future?
A bunch of nonsense questions go through my brain when hearing this song. For the most part, as much as I love Bruno Mars, I change the station.
Yesterday, while texting my boy, this song came on and without even realizing it, I began to have thoughts about how much I love him. He holds my hand in public. He even KISSES me! He gives me enough us time. And when we're not together, I'm comfortable knowing he's still mine. He takes me to things I want to do. And I love it. I love seeing how he shows me he loves me. HE SHOWS ME HE LOVES ME.
I smile knowing that someday, I may actually getting a chance to be kissed when the officant says, "you may kiss the bride." I smile knowing that he sets aside time for me in his busy schedule to be with me. That he cuddles with me on the couch. That he is a contributing factor to good memories in this relationship. He. Is. a. CONTRIBUTING. Factor. to the happiness of this relationship.
I'm constantly trying to remind myself that even though I don't know how "fun" things will be or maybe I'm not in the mood to participate, to just do it. Why not? What will I lose? Time? Well, that's going to pass anyway. Not pass the time with someone who wants to be with me rather then by myself, watching TV, playing with myself.
Do you have someone who contributes to the happiness of your relationship?? You should be thanking your partner. Do you want that, do something about it. Are you giving that? Make it happen.
Ah-I love being in love. <3 p="">
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