As the birds chirp their good mornings......

My final few days here in West End have been full and mainly boring. 

I had an appointment with a Life Coach.  Here's the problem.  I do not necessarily find that acquiring the "direction" of a life coach to be the way to go in life.  Firstly, she was, in every way, useless to me.  She did speak about herself quite a bit during the one hour we spent together.  In the end, she offered me a job (a good) but then still charged me for the session.  Because the scheduling girl had misquoted me at $180, I paid that "discounted" fee from $250.  That's insane first of all.  I don't honestly know that ANYONE's time is worth $250.

On top of that, we had a girls night last night.  Full of pure romance, baking, and giggles.  These girls are so beautiful.  I can't help but to absolutely adore the friends I have made.  All on my own accord.  These girls enjoy me for me.

The boy surprised me this morning with some 3 am love making, I'm going to miss that.  As the sun comes up over the Brisbane river, the ferries are already at full speed, and the birds chirp their good mornings, I'm reminiscing..... re-reading my private blog.  Rediscovering who I used to be, who I aimed to be, and who I am now.  I'm not that much different than the girl who started posting a blog in Aug of 2011.  Still a mess, still happy, still being me.

I'm letting life take its course.  In a facebook conversation with my besties in the US, I wrote: its 5;43 here, I just fired another employee, my business has failed, and I don't have a visa to come back to Australia. but chin up............Deb replied: You are coming back here and will get it back together. It hasnt failed. Just a couple people have failed you. 

In the end, it doesn't really matter.  What's a life if you're caged?

The chill of the morning air is numbing my fingers.  The sounds of west end awakening....climbing with my friends isn't going to happen today.  Really upsetting for me, but nothing I can do about that.  West end markets are on this morning to say good bye to the routines I've built here.  To finally buy a shirt from there that I've always wanted.  I'll have the gypsies organic coffee one more time and maybe a donut this morning.  I'm no longer in control of where I live at the moment.  Forced to head back to my homeland due to politics and paperwork. 

At least, I have my amazing family and friends to return to.  There maybe no rock climbing, or waking up to the ocean, and snow 9 months out of the year....but the people are so perfect.  I love each of them to no end and am honored that they have stayed by me through my journey around the world.  And I can't thank God enough for blessing me with the gift of knowing each and every soul.

Goodbye Saturday mornings on the Brisbane River.......

xoxox