I've had it up to my big fat bushy eyebrows with standards.
What's acceptable. What other people feel is normal.
Here's an idea. The people writing the laws and setting
'normal' define 'normal' by what they're taught, what they're exposed to and
their own everyday interactions.
Why should I accept someone else’s standards if, when in
fact, they aren't up to par of my own. In one of my posts I wrote about being
at Wild Mountains when I was volunteering there and we played a team building
game called Red/Black. It was an eye opener as to how people just accept what
they hear without questioning what they believe.
I find myself falling into that trap periodically and then I
need a polite reminder that I should break the fucking mold. I am not who you
say I am. I am who I decide to be. While rules and structure are important to
keeping society together; things get lost and the actual meaning of what those
things were established for are lost as well.
We easily lose sight of right, wrong, morals, and anything
our instincts say when we fall into a formality. It’s arguablely good and bad.
I don't want to discuss the reasons why following rules and having structure is
a good thing. We all know that having an established 'norm' is a good thing.
But let me instead plant this seed, if you had the creativity
of establishing your own norm, what would you do? How would you act? Would you
be different from who you are now? Would you like different things? Would you
experience life in a new manner? Would you want the opportunity to even be able
to experience things differently?
Its different for everyone. Some people are happy to sit on
the sidelines and not give any input. Some people are too outspoken and their
ideas are the "way to go." How to find a happy medium? Is there a way
to establish a society in which those who choose to be quiet still have the
ability to voice their opinion in their own way?
Here's my vocal, somewhat opinionated, opinion. I vow, from
this day forward, to acknowledge my intuition. To identify feelings and allow
these feelings to be felt, in its entirety. So if I'm in love, I'm going to let
love lead me down the path it chooses. If I am concerned, I'm going to identify
those feelings, chase down why I'm feeling it that way and address them
accordingly. I will be more cognizant in the things I allow sway my decisions.
Where is this coming from you ask? I'm here at Annen and
it's lost my voice. I know I haven't been here to maintain a voice; but I sit
here thinking, um, maybe I don't want to offend or I don't like this change how
do I go back? So I say to myself, 'wait a second. this is your dream. your
practice. you gave up Australia to make this work. so make it work.
re-establish yourself in this practice."
The 'normal' established here doesn't have to stay. Redefine
this practice! It worked once, it will again.
xoxoxoxox
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