Just talking to them; I can tell their spirit is black. Everyone here is out for themselves and they don't even realize it. At the end of the day, I can't even say I have any true friends here except a few scattered around, please don't be offended that I'm not naming you individually; you know who you are and I love you for it. And not that it matters, I don't need a zillion friends. Its just really sad at how many people are dishonest. It requires you to keep your guard up and that is so draining.
Nathan used to get so mad at me that I trusted people so easily. He would tell me that people aren't honest and are manipulative. After an e-mail exchange yesterday and today, along with the recent events of the practice; its shocking to me how many people are comfortable with themselves.
And then they're so good at lying and being deceitful; I'm the one who feels guilty. Like all of the honesty and effort I've put into making sure things are "right" and they are so jaded by their own perception that they think I'm being dishonest.
There will come a point when we stop taking this insurance company. Its coming to a point now that the people I am dealing with are genuine honest true blue people. And not just when things are going well. These people are here for the long haul. They don't have hidden secret agendas. They are good people. And that is what keeps me going here.
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